So much for being on the ball with blogging my 2012 goals. About a 2 weeks ago I posted on our facebook page that I had finally landed on a goal for this year, but then I got busy and didn’t let you all in on what it was.
Why is it important anyways, sharing goals? Well, for me… when I write something down, it gets remembered. It’s not really for you… it’s for me. Why share it publicly? Well, I don’t keep a journal. My blog, in a weird way is my journal. When I go back three years ago, to when this all started, I see where I was as a person and an artist. You might not know this, but my photographs tell not only the story of the subjects, but also tell a story of my life. It’s more subtle, but I can tell what I was feeling at that time through my art. It is sort weird really…
So, here it is, my ONE 2012 goal… to let go. Last year I chased goals, made sacrifices, stressed myself out to no end, worked harder, beat myself up over little things, compared myself to people, and mostly felt alone. So, this year, I’m letting go of all that. Letting go of feeling like I’m never good enough, and embracing that I have a gift, and that God gave me that gift to glorify him. How dare I think I’m not good enough. He is the one who allows my eyes to see, and what I see is what he has put in front of me. It all, in itself is a beautiful gift, and I should feel grateful and blessed, not inadequate and self-conscious.
So… there it is. I’m sooooo excited for this year… I feel good about where I’m at as an artist, and what I’m doing. Our upcoming wedding clients have me all sorts of excited and we feel truly blessed.
Does anyone else have any goals or ambitions for the year that surprised them?
"Make a careful exploration of who you are and the work you have been given, and then sink yourself into that. Don't be impressed with yourself. Don't compare yourself with others. Each of you must take responsibility for doing the creative best you can with your own life."
-Galatians 6:4-5 (The Message) (Jan 26th 13:39)